Failure life.

Insomnia night.

To sorry to say that I have fail my resit examination.
Suppose to meet my Foundation college friend due to time is not really well for me and I rejected it dunno for how many times.
Guilty to the max.
How am I judge to my life? I'm lost.

Good Night.
and Good to visit you again, April Autumn.

The real last day that never get in touch with u

Of course, I cried. After I read all the mails that sent by a guy to a half-existence couple's mail. now officially vanished.
I cried is not because of I still not sure or not that I am love him seriously now,
I cried is not because that was not his fault,
I cried is not because I am not regret.

I cried is because of I realised it's probably much too late,
I cried is because of it will never be the same again,
I cried is because of I hurted someone else deeply.

I know it will never get back again,
I know I will never allow to have the chance again,
I know I shouldn't invited the guy to the movie,
Then everything will never be happen like today.

I hurted too many people, including this guy,
Crush on a person is doesn't mean is love.

No matter how hard it was, I just don't know how to enjoy to be in love.

From now on, I will be learn to how to stay strong, without you. And same to you., stay strong without me.
I will be a hardworking girl.
achieve the life career in my life.


Thanks for gave me such a special, loving memory.
Although I was trying to make u to leave me last time.
Yet, still separated.

The AnM, maybe is no longer to be exist.

Though you had mentioned don't find your Sunway, ACS, and HICT friends. (now I only know that HICT friends are belonging to you ONLY, it's not from me and you)
they aren't my friends, I will make the touch to the least.

these two songs are keep running on my head,
Just give me a reason by Pink

Which I can read someone's .

Bruno Mars sang When I was Your Man, it so totally .true.

Yesterday was the last day, and he claimed I crush on someone else.
I guess I have no necessary to explain.

Because, is the end.

I'm not sure this could be the last post for this blog or not,
But this is what I thought today, and share it here.
If there has a chance, maybe I will pay a visit and share more stories.

Claimed from that crush statement, if it is really happen, it is still hard for me to face a guy which I face him as brother for 6 years. Lol. 

Better don't love me, I still dunno how to love.

:)!

It is been a long time that didn't visit to this blog.
hence,
I changed my name.
Still remain as kitty.
but got the other name.

'Caramel Kitty Swensden'


LOL. Throll.

Reminding myself. Needed to used to it. Must remind. Remind.



*left shoulder is so pain, skin got burned around the front chest and started feeling pain already.. hope don't make my skin got looking like tear-off =.=

a hard night to sleep..

马六甲 半日记

至十一月的十二日，南下的马来西亚。

今天早上下了毛毛雨，但不久，就雨过天晴了。

我步行了整个Jonker Street，回忆忽然。。。。

啊呀，回忆嘛 :)

何必去流泪呢。

心情那种复杂，忐忑，矛盾，不能静下来。

现在在新山了，虽然这是我第二次的拜访，但这里的夜景，真的漂亮极了。
可能我住在8楼高的大厦，就能看到新加坡的夜景。


功课做了一点点，明天再继续吧。太累了。

希望他好好照顾身体。

明天即将回去，legoland。被拉去了。


晚安了。四月的秋天。

Stupid Path

My Path in Android is not working today. Ish.. cant update my mood..
Things went so fast within just a week.

Haiz. Fast enuf.
Im going to used to it. Must.

Full of guiltiness around the air... What should I do?